Maybe you died 'cause everybody asked me, "Where you at?"
I tried to channel you in hopes that I could stare you back
But it's like every intersection we just missed each other
You got your fans waiting, tell me you ain't six feet under
And tell that you coming back and you just took a break
Maybe I blamed you for everything – that was my mistake
In hindsight, I loved your rawness and I loved your edge
'Cause it was you who talked me down from jumping off the ledge
Your earrings bamboo
Your long nails, too
Your BMW
Every time you came through
You was the brave heart
You stole Wayne heart
You never switched it up
You played the same part
But I needed to grow
And I needed to know
Were there some things inside of me that I needed to show?
So I just deaded you
Left you in all black
But dear, old Nicki
Please call back
You told me you'd come when I needed you
And you said it so sweetly I really knew
But I'm standing here calling
I can't see you
But I am holding you, holding you, holding you to that
Yo, did I chase the glitz and glamour?
Money, fame and power?
'Cause if so that will forever go down my lamest hour
I should've kept you with me, gettin' at them nameless cowards
There was no match for you
Couldn't defeat your prowess
I had to make them changes – I hope you understood
You see for every bad, I did a ton of good
But you was underground and I was mainstream
I live the life now, that we would daydream
My only wish is you come enjoy it with me
Get on them conference calls
Go meet them lawyers with me
The money came, yeah
Tripled and quadrupled it
But I still miss us when we was just on some stupid shit
And it still fucked the media
They ridiculed you
Never believed in ya
They just deaded you
Left you in all black
But dear, old Nicki
Please call back
You told me you'd come when I needed you
And you said it so sweetly I really knew
But I'm standing here calling
I can't see you
But I am holding you, holding you, holding you to that
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you to that
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you
And yes I'm holding you, holding you, holding you to that
