Letter 2 My Unborn

To my unborn child… To my unborn child In case I don’t make it Just remember, Daddy loves you Now ever since my birth I've been cursed, since I'm born to wile In case I never get to holla at my unborn child Many things learned in prison, blessed and still livin' Trying to earn every penny that I'm gettin', I'm reminiscin' To the beginning of my mission When I was conceived and came to be in this position My momma was a Panther: loud single parent, but she proud When she witnessed baby boy rip a crowd Went to school, but I dropped out and left the house ‘Cause my mama say I'm good for nothing, so I'm out Since I only got one life to live, God forgive me for my sins Let me make it and I'll never steal again or deal again My only friend is my misery Wanting revenge for the agony they did to me See, my life ain't promised, but it's sure getting better Hope you understand my love letter, to my unborn child I'm writing you a letter This is to my unborn child Want to let you know I love you If you didn't know I feel this way ‘Cause I think about you every day I have so much to say Seems so complicated to escape fate And you can never understand till we trade places Tell the world I feel guilty for being anxious Ain't no way in hell that I could ever be a rapist It's hard to face this cold world on a good day When will they let the little kids in the hood play? I got shot five times, but I'm still breathin' Living proof there's a God if you need a reason Can I believe in my own fate? Will I raise my kids in the right or the wrong way? Dear Mama, I'm a man now I wanna make it on my own, not a handout Make way for a whirlwind prophesized I wanna go in peace when I got to die On these cold streets, ain't no love, no mercy and no friends In case you never see my face again, to my unborn child I'm writing you a letter This is to my unborn child Want to let you know I love you If you didn't know I feel this way ‘Cause I think about you every day I have so much to say Dear Lord, can you hear me? Tell me what to say To my unborn seed in case I pass away Will my child get to feel love? Or are we all just cursed to be street thugs? ‘Cause being black hurts, and even worse if you speak first Living my life as an Outlaw – what could be worse? ‘Cause maybe if I tried to change Who'm I kidding? I'm a thug til I die; I'm a rider, mane Touch bases, eat lunch in plush places Regular criminal oasis awaits us If there's a ghetto for true thugs, I'll see you there And I'm sorry for not being there Just know your daddy was a soldier: Me Against the World Bless the boys and all my little girls To the Lord: I'm eternal, resting in peace Please take care of all my seeds, to my unborn child I'm writing you a letter This is to my unborn child Want to let you know I love you If you didn't know I feel this way ‘Cause I think about you every day I have so much to say This letter goes out to my seeds that I might not get to see ‘cause of this lifestyle Just know your daddy loved you Got nothing but love for you And all I wanted was for you to have a better life than I had ‘Cause I was out there on a 24 hour 365 grind When you get to be my age, you’ll understand Just know I got love for you And I’ll see you if there’s a ghetto in Heaven If there’s a ghetto Heaven, I’ll be there waiting for you Heh heh, take care. Run wild, but be smart Follow the rules of the game I know sometimes there’s confusion Rules of the game is gonna get you through it All day every day Watch out for these snakes and fakes Friends come a dime a dozen Be an individual, work hard Study, get your mind sharp, trust nobody