I Thought About Killing You

I know, I know, I know, I know, know I know, I know, I know, I know, know I, I know it, I know it The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest Today, I seriously thought about killing you I contemplated, premeditated murder And I think about killing myself And I love myself way more than I love you, so… Today, I thought about killing you, premeditated murder You'd only care enough to kill somebody you love The most beautiful thoughts are always inside the darkest (Mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhmm) Just say it out loud to see how it feels People say "don't say this, don't say that" Just say it out loud, just to see how it feels Weigh all the options, nothing's off the table Today, I thought about killing you, premeditated murder I think about killing myself And I, I love myself way more than I love you The most beautiful thoughts are always besides the darkest (Mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhm—mhmm) I think this is the part where I'm supposed to say somethin' good to compensate it so it doesn't come off bad But sometimes I think really bad things Really, really, really bad things And I love myself way more than I love you See, if I was tryin' to relate it to more people I'd probably say I'm struggling with loving myself Because that seems like a common theme But that's not the case here I love myself way more than I love you And I think about killing myself So, best believe, I thought about killing you today Premeditated murder I called up my loved ones, I called up my cousins I called up the Muslims, said I'm 'bout to go dumb Get so bright, it's no sun, get so loud, I hear none Screamed so loud, got no lungs, hurt so bad, I go numb Time to bring in the drums, that prra-pa-pa-pum Set the NewTone on 'em, set the nuke off on 'em I need Coke with no rum, I taste coke on her tongue I don't joke with no one, they'll say he died so young I done had a bad case of too many bad days Got too many bad traits, used the floor for ashtrays I don't do shit halfway, I'ma clear the cache I'ma make my name last, put that on my last name It's a different type of rules that we obey Ye, Ye, Ye season, nigga, we Old Bay We was all born to die, nigga, DOA Niggas say they hero, mm, I don't see no cape Mm, I don't see no, mm, yeah, I don't see no, mm, mm If I wasn't shinin' so hard, wouldn't be no shade Buckwheat-ass nigga, it's gon' be o-tay Sorry, but I chose not to be no slave Young nigga shit, nigga, we don't age I thought I was past my Deebo ways Even when I went broke, I ain't break How you gon' hate? Nigga, we go way back To when I had the braids and you had the wave cap Drop a pin for the fade and I'm on my way ASAP Don't get socked in the mouth, you know homie don't play that Pay the fire marshal bill 'cause this shit done got way packed They wanna see me go ape (ape, ape) All you gotta do is speak on Ye All you gotta do is speak on Ye Don't get your tooth chipped like Frito-Lay