Happy

Since I was 17 I’ve always hated my body And it feels like my body’s hated me Can somebody find me a pill to make me un-afraid of me? Seen every therapist but I’m a cynical bitch (don’t like to talk about my feelings) I take another hit, I find another fake fix 'Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Since I was 22 I’ve been with somebody who loves me and I’ve been trying to believe it’s true But my head always messes up my heart no matter what I do Seen every therapist but I’m a cynical bitch (don’t like to talk about my feelings) I take another sip, I swear it’s my last fix 'Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I’m so scared of having something to lose I’m scared of being somebody new I’m so scared of all them seeing the truth 'Cause right now I’ve got nothing But I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy