Shadow (feat. IRO) [From Songland]

Got me straight up drinkin' from the barrel I've been losin' hours Singin' sad songs underneath the gallows Runnin' from my shadow Runnin' from my shadow I need relief, I need some peace But the voices, they keep talking to me And I keep going to meetings, I pray every evening But I can't escape my disease Lookin' at me, stare in the mirror Look at the man starin' back at you You are your failures, you are your triumphs You are a prophet, you are an asshole You are a devil and you are a god You buy a shovel and bury it all Think you can purchase your way right out of the void And not end up payin' the cost? Lie to yourself, lie to them, hell Whatever helps, forgotten what's real You think the secrets you keep stay between you and me But the shadow's attached to your heels, like Got me straight up drinkin' from the barrel I've been losin' hours Singin' sad songs underneath the gallows Runnin' from my shadow Runnin' from my shadow I let it rain through the sunroof I've been parked out by the waterfront Been going to war with myself Reading Sun Tzu, bumpin' Tha Carter I I'm back on day two, forgot how hard it was Starin' at me for so long, I forgot who the target was I thought I was over this, this isn't what sober is What kind of dad would hold their kids Then go back out and ignore the risk? The shadow wants me to forget the pain Wants me to live in the guilt and the shame So much that I have no choice but to die from the drugs Or blow out my fucking brain The shadow, it wants me too busy It wants me keep driftin' It wants me to give in to fame It wants me forgettin' that I got an illness that lives in my spirit in different ways Shadow, the light They can both blind, got different names If it's too dark, if it's too bright It can still burn you with different flames And I don't owe them an iota Tell my mama I'ma die sober Yeah, I might be bipolar I should write an album out in Wyoming Low bottom, I'm a high roller Go full throttle, got no chauffeur Got two voices on both shoulders But I keep swinging 'til the fight's over Got me straight up drinkin' from the barrel I've been losin' hours Singin' sad songs underneath the gallows Runnin' from my shadow (Runnin' from my shadow) Runnin', I'm runnin', I can't get away, away, away Chasin' me down every night and all day, all day, all day Runnin', I'm runnin', I can't get away, away, away Chasin' me down every night and all day, all day Runnin', I'm runnin', I can't get away, away, away Chasin' me down every night and all day, all day, all day I'm runnin', I'm runnin', I can't get away Chasin' me down every night and all day My mama told me I gotta be brave, be brave, be brave Keep runnin' from my shadow