11. my life (Mark Tuan, Niccolo Justin Short, Geno Gitas, Henry Nichols, and Maxwell James Nichols) Published by Written by Mark Tuan, Geno Gitas, Niccolo Justin Short Produced by OVRCZ, lilspirit, Pharaoh Vice, and mjNichols Engineered by lilspirit, Sam Valentine Recorded at DNA Studios Mixed by Yianni AP Mastered by Théo Quayle Sometimes I look at myself it\'s 有时候我看着我自己 A little bit selfish 有些自私 I tried but I can\'t win 我试过了但我无法获胜 You don\'t even know 你根本不知道 How could somebody look at me 怎么会有人看着我 And think that I\'m happy 以为我很快乐 I haven\'t been laughing 我已经很久没有 Too much anymore 真正的大笑一场了 You say I seem okay when I\'m sitting here with all my friends 你说我和朋友在一起时看起来都很好 Easy to say when you\'re looking from the outside in 从外表往里看，说起来容易 I\'ll never change, loving myself is all pretend 我永远不会变，爱自己只是伪装 And I might never again 而我可能再也不会 I tried everything to please you 我试过一切来取悦你 I forgot to think of me too 却忘了为自己想想 I woke up and realized 我醒来后才发现 That this is my life 这才是我的人生 And every time that I felt hopeless 每当我感到绝望 I faked myself up to keep on going 我折磨自己来坚持住 And I never realized 而我从未意识到 That this is my life 这才是我的人生 Sometimes I wish I was different 有时我希望自己有所不同 And someone would listen 有人会聆听 It\'s hard it explain it 这很难解释 You don\'t even know 你根本不知道 Last time I told you I missed you 上一次我说我想你 It turned to an issue 却成为了一个问题 Guess I was mistaken 看来是我想错了 I\'ll leave you alone 我就不打扰你了 You say I seem okay when I\'m sitting here with all my friends 你说我和朋友在一起时看起来都很好 Easy to say when you\'re looking from the outside in 从外表往里看，说起来容易 I\'ll never change, loving myself is all pretend 我永远不会变，爱自己只是伪装 And I might never again 而我可能再也不会 I tried everything to please you 我试过一切来取悦你 I forgot to think of me too 却忘了为自己想想 I woke up and realized 我醒来后才发现 That this is my life 这才是我的人生 And every time that I felt hopeless 每当我感到绝望 I faked myself up to keep on going 我折磨自己来坚持住 And I never realized 而我从未意识到 That this is my life 这才是我的人生