Long ago I tried so hard to lose you and to be with you All at the same time Touching you and still staying afar And lately you have tried so hard to soothe and to caress me Oh while all I dreamed of was to hide away, yet to be found And someday I will trail my spirit’s voice And hold on to what it says And maybe I will be astounded by the beauty of my world And nowadays I only seem to find my peace in piles of shards of failed attempts to love And failed attempts to take my life