必要之惡

從前以為所謂的惡存在於別人心中，後來又以為惡存在於我和別 人之間，為免被惡所傷，我先成為了壞人。「你愛我嗎?」我幾乎不敢肯定，我在患得患失的漩渦裏掙扎， 漸漸被那種自我懷疑的恐懼，將一切都變成了惡。即使你總是那麼的好，但你對我的好，在我看來又好像是為了彌 補什麼。到惡將愛都消耗掉後，這才發現，真正的惡一直只存在於我的世 界裡。I used to believe that so-called evilness existed in the heart of others, but soon I began to believe that evil existed between me and others. In order to avoid being hurt, I became a bad person."Do you love me?" I was not sure. I was struggling in the vastness of worries about what I'd gain and what I'd lose, and gradually the fear and self doubt turned everything into poison.Even though you were always so kind, your kindness always felt duplicitous, as if you were making up for something.After the poison consumed all love between us, I discovered all this time; real evil only existed in my own world.