Deja Vu

As I fall deeper into a manic state Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug outta trate The blood pressure climbs to a dramatic rate I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil than i salivate Start off with the Nyquil with like I think I will just have a taste Couple of sips of that than I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called valium like yah thats great I go to just take one than i end up like having eight Now i need something in my stomach because i haven't ate Maybe ill grab a plate of nachos and ill have a steak And youd think with all i have at stake look at my daughters face Mommy something is wrong with dad I thank Hes acting weird again he's really beginnings to scare me Wont shave his beard again and he pretends that he doesn't hear me And all he does eat dorritos and cheetos and he just Fell asleep in his car eating three muskateers in the rear seat Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know It feels like ive been down this road before So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me As soon as i go home and close the door God feels like deja vu i wanna get away from this place i do But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer Thats the devil in my ear ive been sober a fuckin year And that fucker still talks to me hes all i can fuckign hear Marshall c'mon well watch the game its the cowboys and buccanears And maybe if i just drink half ill be half buzzed For half of the time, whose the mastermind behind that little line With that kind of rational man i got half a mind To have another half a glass of wine sounds assenine Yeah i know, but i never had no problem with alcohol Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch im about to fall I miss the couch and down go like a bouncy ball Shit must of knocked me out cause i didn't feel the ground at all Wow what the fuck happened last night where am i Man fuck am i hung over and god damn i Got a headache shit half a vicodin, why cant i All systems ready for take off, please stand by Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know It feels like ive been down this road before So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me As soon as i go home and close the door God feels like deja vu i wanna get away from this place i do But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo So i take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ahhhhhh Couple of weeks go by and it aint even like i am getting high Now i need it to not feel sick yah im getting by Wouldn't even be taking this shit if deshauwn didn't die Oh yeah theres an excuse you lose proof so you use Theres new rules its cool if its helping you to get through Its twelve noon aint no harm in self inducing a snooze What else is new fuck it what would elvis do in your shoes Now here i am three months later full blown relapse Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes relax And since im convince that im an in-somni-ac I need these pills to be able to sleep so i take three naps Just to be able to function throughout the day Lets see thats an ambian each nap how many valium three And that averages out to one good hour of sleep So now you see the reason how come he Has taken four years to just put out an album b See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath Cause that Christmas you know that whole neumonia thing It was bolognia was it the methadonia think But hydrocordone ya hide inside ya pornos Ya vcr tape cases put ya ambiants see great places To hide em aint it, so you can lie to haily Im going beddy by whitney baby good night elaina Go in the room and shut the bedroom door And wake up in an ambulance they say they found me on the bathroom floor Sometimes i feel so alone, I just don't know It feels like ive been down this road before So lonely and cold it's like something takes over me As soon as i go home and close the door God feels like deja vu i wanna get away from this place i do But i cant and i won't say i try but i know it's a lie cause i don't and why i just don't knowwoooo