This Time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake Waiting for my thoughts to fade A flickering of all of my mistakes And as the light starts creeping in I slowly feel The day I'm missing But I wouldn't even know where to begin Do I push to hard? Or fall to fast? The moment never seems to last Will I stop long enough to know Everybody burns And when it starts to hurt, I cry I feel it in my veins I just can't walk away, This time Your words circle in my head Weigh so heavy on my chest And I'm crushed by your expectation I only want to do some good Too dumb to know if I could And I just wanna feel the days I'm in Do I go to far, Not far enough? Why can't I keep my big mouth shut? And do we lead the life that we should? Everybody burns And when it starts to hurt, I cry I feel it in my veins I just can't walk away, This time Did I say to much again? I'm just a girl in a panic If I tell you my truth Am I getting through? It just seems I should confess Who am I to pretend This is more than I can carry Everybody burns And when it starts to hurt, I cry I hold my head up high I know I'll be alright This time I feel it in my veins I just can't walk away This time This time, This time This time, This time It's 4 am and I'm wide awake Waiting for my thoughts to fade It's times like these I see your face