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Cause I had the best of the worst sides And I had these lungs And I had too many flash fires That I just let them burn Till my chest is on fire And my head just won't die I guess I'm lying cause I wanna I guess I'm lying cause I don't Cause I just feel so tired Like it's move or slowly die You ain't you when you're like this This ain't you and you know it But ain't that just the point? You don't know How to let go Who said this must be all or nothing? But I'm still caught below And I'll never let you know No I can't tell you nothing Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes But still I could always be Whatever you wanted But not what you needed Especially when you been needing me Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes And I'll say what I don't mean Just cause I wanted Or maybe I need it Swear lying's the only rush I need Cause all I needed was some words to say That all these feelings don't mean shit to me Cause it's all just chemicals anyway Anyway And I got way too many routes to take To make this all just go away And find another heart to break So heartless with the words I say Just saying what I'm supposed to say Cause I had nothing for you I can't love when I can't even love myself Things I would rather be thoughts at the back of my head, but I'm addicted to hurting And I got these lungs And I spent too many late nights Just Thinking a hole in the earth Till the sky is on fire And my head still won't die I guess I'm lying cause I want to I guess I'm lying cause I don't Cause I just feel so tired Like I need something to come alive She said you ain't you when you're like this This ain't you what you done? And I said that's the point You don't know how to let go Who said this must be all or nothing? But I'm still caught below And I'll never let you know No I can't tell you nothing Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes But still I could always be Whatever you wanted But not what you needed Especially when you been needing me Cause I'm a fucking mess inside And I'll say what I don't mean Just cause I wanted Or maybe I need it Swear lying's the only rush I need