My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life
Was the worst-the most depressed I've ever been.
Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead.
I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now,
Like I may never have a song this big again,
My tour, I think every date sold out except one date.
So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening,
And I felt-I didn't feel happy at all.
And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad,
'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me, 'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work."
