My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life Was the worst-the most depressed I've ever been. Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier if I was just dead. I got a number one on Billboard, my song is massive right now, Like I may never have a song this big again, My tour, I think every date sold out except one date. So I literally had everything that I had always dreamed of happening, And I felt-I didn't feel happy at all. And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad, 'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it, there's gotta be more for me, 'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work."