Wasn't raised religeous But I wish that I was Having nothing to believe in It's been killing my buzz Yeah, I comb my hair, close the blinds Play "Hallelujah" like two dozen times And yesterday, I tried to pray But I didn't know what to say I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to fuck up' Don't like to talk, just lay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends Lied to my doctor, she knew I was faking Give me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry Can't tell my mama It makes her worry I'm not suicidal Sometimes, the lines get all blurry Yeah, I comb my hair, close the blinds Play "Hallelujah" like two dozen times And yesterday, I tried to pray But I didn't know what to say I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to fuck up' Don't like to talk, just lay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends Lied to my doctor, she knew I was faking Give me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up Don't even try 'cause I'm scared to fuck up' Don't like to talk, just lay in my bed Don't even try to go out with my friends Lied to my doctor, she knew I was faking Give me some pills, but I'm too scared to take 'em I try and I try But I'm too sad to cry