The List

Oh, I have a hobby of picking myself apart Leaving people I love waiting in the dark And sometimes when I want to cry, I laugh It's kind of funny Oh, and this October I went falling off the edge All of London must have heard the things I said Put your hand up if I let you down again There's a list of things that I should stop List of things that I should stop List of things that I should not be doing but I do 'em It's a pattern that I got I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing Need to stop getting drunk to avoid this situation I need to stop letting myself down I'll try something that I've not before And like myself a little more now Oh, I have got an attic full of damage in my mind I box it up, say I'll deal with it another night And I have a problem looking people in the eye Isn't that funny? There's a list of things that I should stop List of things that I should stop List of things that I should not be doing but I do 'em It's a pattern that I got I need to stop my excuses and have a real conversation Need to look in the mirror, stop finding things that need changing Need to stop getting drunk to avoid this situation I need to stop letting myself down I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited I need to stop letting myself down I'll try something that I've not before Oh, I'm a master at dancing around the point I know I call you but I hate the sound of my own voice So can you talk? You know I'm stacking up Until the night I'm not enough And you're just someone else I disappoint I need to stop my excuses and put my feelings in order Need to look in the mirror and stand a little bit taller Need to stop getting drunk as a reason to call ya I need to stop letting myself down Oh, I should shut up and listen, not try to fill every silence I should stumble in love instead of running and hiding I should stop getting drunk and showing up uninvited I need to stop letting myself down I'll try something that I've not before And like myself a little more now