Everything Will Be OK

Even if I don't stay Everything will be okay Everything will be okay Everything will be okay (Okay, okay) Contemplating just who I coulda turned out to be If I'da stayed and weren't heard, what would amount to me If I had looked and ain't found what I have found in me I mean inside, would they love me Never looked down on me They say, "You know, if you loved her well then you would have stayed You could have made a perfect pair that people wouldn't trade" Trade for nothing, I did though, I had to chase it Face it, I wasn't born to live a life basic They say, "You turned your back on us just to go and be An artist, what's a promise anyway when someone breaks it I bet he finally gets a shot and then he wastes it I bet he don't come back for us when he makes it And if he do it'd be too late, you gotta face it 'Cause by then there's someone new you been replaced with Old friends I grew up with, the girl I fell in love with Love or hate me depending on how you judge it Even if I don't stay (Even if I don't stay) Everything will be okay Everything will be okay (I promise it'll be okay) Everything will be okay (Okay, okay) I had to wander, I had to go tread my own path If you don't step through no mud, well then it won't last The years pass, it's crazy how they go fast Ask myself questions you have, but that you won't ask Like, "You don't even come home enough Where were you when she was in the hospital, huh It was only us" And that's deep and yeah, I know it cuts But if that gets you, then you're weak 'cause we were here and it ain't broken us Still as close and stayed by her side when no one was Like when she lost her job and everything, how broke we was When she was sick and she needed some taking care of A fifteen year old shouldered the weight and what he was scared of The worst, I know that you stayed strong I don't say this enough, but you made me just as proud as you made Mom Yeah, you got some anger, but I don't blame you at all I know I don't call, but you're my brother I love you Even if I don't stay (Even if I don't stay) Everything will be okay (It'll be, it'll be okay) Everything will be okay (I promise it'll be okay) Everything will be okay (Okay, okay) Yeah, in that first grade class they came and got me "Your mom's outside, say goodbye now to everybody" U-Haul was waiting with all of her things, at least what she could pack In the time my dad's at work and before he came back Way too young to comprehend what was happening "Are we going to grandma's When are we coming back again" Little did I know that we were leaving him by himself And ten years would pass before Mom sees anybody else Just us, in middle school, I ain't understand Who Melissa was and why she wasn't another man Biased and confused, they try explain, but nobody can Wanted what I thought was normal, she had another plan Such is life, even if it took time for me to accept it No longer Dad now, but a woman with whom she slept with Over the years when a secret was how she kept it I ain't get it, admittedly I was skeptic I came around, happiness I see's what you may have found And that's what's most important, I don't wanna see you breaking down I wanna see you smile, I don't wanna see you make a frown If she loves you, then that's all anybody needs maybe now By '05 things had gotten worse Moved to the basement, deep depression's a rotten curse Hiding in a dark space, her mind and her body hurts Becoming more reclusive and the pills should have been alerts So the worse it got, I became more and more afraid Until one night, I went into that room, on the floor she laid I shook her, she was blue, her skin was cold and she wasn't breathing Screamed, "Melissa wake up," couldn't fathom that she was leaving Mom and Bro was running down, I screamed "Somebody help" Try pumping her chest, CPR, but it didn't help Toughest pill to swallow, but we lost, that's forced reflection While in her life you made her happy, thank you for the blessing Even if I don't stay (Even if I don't stay) Everything will be okay (It'll be, it'll be okay) Everything will be okay (I promise it'll be okay) Everything will be okay (Okay, okay)