I’m Trying (Not Friends)

London 2020 Boy and a girl broke up, yeah, it's two a penny And I been tryna make a big step forward Saw you, it was awkward Nothing like I thought would happen happened I was so in love And that don't come off in the wash Kinda hope it does though 'Cause you're seeing someone pretty And I hate her guts, so I'll be telling you she's nice on the bus home We were bad but we're gonna be good It didn't work like I thought it would And I resent you just a little if I'm honest But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise And I swore that I'd swallow my pride And you swore you would do better this time Well, I might be bitter and twisted And broken and petty and lying But at least I'm trying At least I'm trying At least I'm trying Three shots, lemon drops One for being lost and alone in your early twenties One for being obsessed with someone who puts you secondary One for calling guys with guitars in a cemetery Just me Okay, if I'm being frank I want a sorry but I'll settle for a handshake 'Cause I'm the baby But I'm gonna be the bigger man, babe So many blank slates I could build a whole fucking house We were bad but we're gonna be good It didn't work like I thought it would And I resent you just a little if I'm honest But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise And I swore that I'd swallow my pride And you swore you would do better this time Well, I might be bitter and twisted And broken and petty and lying But at least I'm trying At least I'm trying Not friends No, we're somewhere in between 'Cause you're awful and I miss you And I killed you in my dream last night Even then you didn't care It's a low when even in my dreams you still don't want me there Got friends Got at least a healthy five Yeah, some people think I'm funny, baby Don't look so surprised We think that your girlfriend is a bore But we're nice to her in public 'Cause we're grown up and mature Not friends 'Cause when I asked you on the train why you hurt me And you couldn't really actually explain, I cried Then I told you it was cool God! You haven't changed at all We were bad but we're gonna be good It didn't work like I thought it would And I resent you just a little if I'm honest But one of us has gotta try to keep a promise And I swore that I'd swallow my pride And you swore you would do better this time Well, I might be bitter and twisted And broken and petty and lying And you might be awful like all of the time, yeah It's almost inspiring But at least I'm trying At least I'm trying At least I'm trying