Time

April 27th, 2019 I hope you hear, I hope this reaches you, uh All the money in the world, I can't find where they selling time One button, that rewind, I'm just taking sip of this wine, let me catch you up It's been some time, let's me catch you up Yeah, uh, uh I don't know where to start But something told me, write this down and just speak from the heart It's been fourteen years since I found you all alone in the dark But losing you, brought us together when it could've tore us apart Mom still ain't good, she misses you, she thinks 'bout you daily We got a dog after you passed and she nicknamed her Missy She lives alone out in New Orleans, she always tells me she miss me But such as life, this story's real, it's not a movie by Disney She'll probably tell you I wrote a song and put your story inside it, fuck I forgot to tell you, I'm a heck a famous rapper now Signed a record deal, I made all of my dreams come true I toured the world, made platinums albums and I still stayed true It's so much to catch up on now as I think out loud When you passed, I was fuckin' up, still I was a problem child But we had promises to each other, yeah, I swore and I vowed I went to college, I graduated, I would've made you proud I'm 'bout to turn thirty, James is 'bout to turn twenty-seven He's finding himself still, but I know he'll find out in a second He graduated from the same school that I went to in NOLA He lives right up the street from moms, it's crazy as he's gotten older He's mature beyond his years, he's the best I guy I know I find the older I get, it's like the less that I know This world's confusing, sometimes I feel all depressed, filled with gloom The more and more I understand why you had to hide in that room, fuck It's been some time since I had someone I could tell this shit Celebrity life is full of everyone expecting shit In 2019, life is crazy, and it's evident, wait You won't believe this part but Trump was the president And Leo finally got his Oscar after all And the Warriors were finally the best team in basketball Anyways that's all for now, I'll keep it short and sweet I'll save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, Melissa) I found peace Hope this moment's brief Shaded memories I can hardly speak I found peace (In our/all dreams) I just grit my teeth Through teary eyes I see Smiling back at me I found peace Yeah, uh Been seven months since you left Some nights it hits me harder than others, that's when I get depressed I play your shit, but I had to stop reading old texts I shed tears sometimes still, fuck it, I've been a mess Knowing myself, I was too proud to ever tell this to you But since you popped out first, I used to be a lil' jealous of you I used to hate sometimes, Jameel said, "That's not healthy of you" But I was broke and unsuccessful, what you expect me to do See, us two white boys rappin', felt like they would always compare us Except you sell out shows across the world from Oakland to Paris And I was still at my mom's crib, that means I live with my parents I couldn't sell shit out in my town, I was slightly embarrassed Fast forward some years, I finally caught up a bit I always wonder 'bout that time, like if you fucked with my shit And then we finally met in Europe, playing festival shows You watch my set sidestage, I'm tryna flex at them shows Until I went and watched yours, you burnt that shit down We talked shit and caught up afterwards, you fucked with my sound We clicked, immediately, time passed in a blink Talking shit, I can't believe that was the first time we linked What I was going through with Ash', you went through with Ariana And you would check in on me daily, help me deal with that drama Come to think of it, we talked like every day last summer You were like a big brother, crazy that you was younger It's, only a dream until it happens to you But no one ever told me these things would be happening too, fuck Anyways that's all for now, I'll keep it short and sweet I'll save the rest until the next time we meet (I miss you, Mac) I found peace Hope this moment's brief Shaded memories I can hardly speak I found peace (In our/all dreams) I just grit my teeth Through teary eyes I see Smiling back at me I found peace All the money in the world, I can't find where they selling time One button, that rewind, I'm just taking sip of this wine, let me catch you up It's been a while, let's me catch you up Yeah, uh, uh (Scoop Dezel)