Scars

Gave away my time, gave away my heart Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars Today my mirror told me, it told me that I'm broken Ask myself when it happened, think some point back in Oakland For all the years that passed when me and pops still hadn't spoken Confusion brewing, young man acting out, guess that's the notion In eighth grade moms was tripping when she caught me mad I'm smoking But she was high too, we both hiding shit, not in the open Nobody told the whole truth, I ain't get that from no one Had no direction I was reckless, still found where I'm going 'Cause he's been through some shit, seems like he's been losing it Pressure start to strangle me, I wish that I could loosen it I could make a noose with it, don't worry I ain't using it [ ] sink my tooth in it Leaning on these substances, my folks said I'm abusing it Drinking straight to get me there like "Won't you put some juice in it " Custom to these schedules and this pressure, I got used to this Am who I am so don't confuse the shit, yeah Gave away my time, gave away my heart Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars 'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars These people talk behind my back but they don't say it to me Some rumors spread, some friends ain't even come and tell 'em to me Like I wasn't here, maybe they think they being helpful to me Maybe it's not that easy, maybe that's just selfish of me All these opinions of me, I see the way they judge me Can't help but wonder 'bout the truth they been thinking of me Still in the mirror, look at myself, ask if I even love me Some parts are good, some parts are bad, some parts are fucking ugly This mental state I'm cursed with, got scars I can't reverse it I'm not your Mr. Perfect, so far from picture perfect Stress you out with my bullshit, ask yourself if it's worth it If not then walk away, you only left me on the surface I thought a thousand verses, I finally found my purpose I'm solo in the lab till I ain't find something I can work with These words turn into memoires, that's what I leave this Earth with So right or wrong, I know it all was worth it Gave away my time, gave away my heart Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars 'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars You know, yeah So if I'm sharing it, clearing out all the air in it Let's go all the way there with it, this my truth and I'm bearing it Maybe it's 'cause your parents split, maybe it's all inherited Plus when you go and pair it with mania is an impairment Undiagnosed mental illnesses not aware of it Manic episodes going crazy, it's an embarrassment Maybe you just passing it down to someone to share it with Maybe you ignore your reflection each time you stare at it Two sides, different stories, was feeling mad confused Fucked up when a child that age really has to choose All those years with a But this is more than some story about some dad issues Maybe I should take a step back before I break us down 'Cause I probably won't say this if I don't say this now So much on my mind that I never say out loud All I ever wanted to hear is that I made you proud, yeah Gave away my time, gave away my heart Put my blood, sweat, and tears in this art Take me where I'm at 'cause I've come far Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars 'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars 'Bout my scars, 'bout my scars Don't judge me, you should ask me 'bout my scars