Thoughts & Prayers

Thoughts Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts No medication's ever made them stop All I think about is everything I'm not Instead of everything I've got 'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing So I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline Then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying But I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me 'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak When I wake up, I just don't like what I see All the way from my head right down to my feet Wish that I felt differently But I'm scared they're all laughing So I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline Then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying But I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me Change Wonder if I'll ever really change 'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing So I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline Then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying But I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to The voice inside my head that's telling me I'm okay Entertain it for a second, then I push it away Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying But I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me Thoughts Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts